I finally broke it out. & other updates

I got this a couple of months ago and I hadn't used it until tonight. So I had a minute to break it out. This little machine is PERFECT for my scrapping needs. Not to mention the occassional baby blanket I might make. Mind you, I've never ever sewn, but I'm willing to practice. Anyway, this little machine is about 10" X 12", so it doesn't take up a lot of room. And it's got 8 stitches, more than I could ever want, lol.

My nephew is with mom and doing good. I just saw him this weekend and it seems like he's finally getting bigger. He's definitely eating like a little piggy. I fed him an 8 oz bottle and he wanted more. My brother is still in jail. He *might* get out before Thanksgiving.

I went to the doctor and left with a whole slew of meds. Diabetes, high blood pressure, high cholesterol, insomnia.... All stress related. Go figure. I feel like an old lady taking all these pills everyday. Of course some of them are vitamins, but still. I have a freaking days of the week pill thingy. *wonder if I can alter it?*

One small relief of that stress is that the state is now garnishing the ex's unemployment checks. And he's in arrears to the tune of 5 grand, in just 4 months. Of course that's aggravated him, so he's doing stupid stuff again. So I get a little stress relief, but get it right back in having to deal with him. But this is a chapter in my life that's almost over.

Alright, I'm gonna finish watching Dateline and I'm going to hit the hay. After 4 days off from work, I guess I should go back....wwwaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!!! I so need to become independently wealthy. oh wait, if I get the child support I'm owed, I'll get to live high off the hog.

Still waiting for answers....

I haven't heard anything just yet about my nephew. I'm trying not to worry. So I'm gonna fluff post.




Today's Challenge~ When doing a layout, do you chose to mat or not mat your photos?

Well that depends. Since I haven't scrapped in FOR-EV-ER, I was matting my photos. But my book of scraps has several LO's that I like that aren't matted.
I made rolodex cards for a swap and I matted my photo. I'd post a pic, but I want to wait until after everyone has gotten theirs.

This one isn't matted and I love it: http://twopeasinabucket.kaboose.com/pg.asp?cmd=display&layout_id=1182550

And this one is matted: http://twopeasinabucket.kaboose.com/pg.asp?cmd=display&layout_id=1235803

Soooo... its a mood thing.


Alright, back to worrying..... I mean work.

I got more drama than a soap opera

"I know God will never give me more than I can handle...I just wish he wouldn't trust me so much." These words couldn't ring more true at this moment.
Tonight while dealing with a double booking at our family counselors office, I get a phone call from my mother. Remember my adorable little nephew who was born in June? Well, child protective services came and took him away from his drunk at 8:30 AM, domestic violence committing parents. Come to find out the apartment was knee deep in garbage, smelled rotten, and contained no formula for the baby. We found out the baby hasn't been seen by a doctor since he was born, does not have his immunizations and is potentially malnourished. I have said several times that it seems like he's not growing well and was dismissed each time. I have never been so angry with my brother, ever. Or as disappointed with him. This is all on them, him and his girlfriend. Both are able bodied and neither of them work by choice. They live off of welfare, which was suspended for them not doing what they were supposed to. They missed the last WIC appointment, so they have no formula. There's no reason for this!!! Other that their sheer lack of caring about that child or themselves for that matter. There's an emergency custody hearing tomorrow, and my mom is going to try to get custody. I would try to get custody, but I have so many problems of my own with my divorce and custody isssues, that I don't think I could handle it. Besides the fact that I wouldn't put this extra strain on my relationship. There's enough strain already.
I almost think that my mother should let the baby go into state custody. Maybe that would be the rock bottom my brother needs. I know that sounds awful, but her or I taking custody would be like giving him what he wants almost. He'd still have free access to his kid and not be responsible for him. UGH!!!
My personal issues are still the same..... no money, a loser ex husband, and heathen children. Scratch that...the heathen's have started to calm down. They are getting better and better attitude wise. We didn't have a whole lot of issues tonight and they actually cuddled with BF on the couch for a while tonight. That's a huge step in the right direction.
My ex left me 3 voicemails last night because I called him out about child support. I give him every weekend visitations. I don't complain that I'm the one who is the "bad guy" parent who has bedtimes and schedules and rules. I don't complain that I don't get to spend good quality time with my kiddos. Yet he has the nerve to tell me that I only want his money so that I can live high on the hog. Sure thats it...... if by high on the hog you mean I can actually pay for daycare without public assistance, make my car payment, pay more than 1/3 of the rent, not have to choose between food and car insurance, buy new (not used) clothes, shoes and maybe a winter coat for the kids and not have to rely on the kindness of my boyfriend to pick up the slack, then call me guilty. I want to live high on the hog. Please? Of course I have to consider the source... a man who seems perfectly content to let another man finance his kids' lives. I'm being bitter and catty, so maybe I should stop for now.
I'm going to lay down, close my eyes and hope for tomorrow to come. I'm anxious to know the outcome of tomorrows hearing. Why do I have the feeling that I'm going to have a long, restless night?